Today is Saturday, my daughter & grandson are off to see the new movie “Home”, then to McDonald’s before she goes to work. A little quiet time to myself. I’ve been bat-shit full of anxiety lately (i feel guilty, i’m evil, ‘my head’s open’, heart & thoughts racing, jumpy, etc) ~ i know my thinking is irrational, but someone please tell my brain?) I’m NOT diggin’ it at all!! This has been happening alot since/because my Rx mix up.My mood is pretty stable ~well, as much as it gets. I need sunshine & warm weather! Could that possibly help? Nah, from past experiences, I don’t think so,,, not much, if any. It’s nice to dream, though. Trying to think positive thoughts ~ pretty soon, it’ll be warm enough to take Jayden to the park, for walks, or just out front with his sidewalk chalk while Nikki’s at work. For now, anxiety/panic ~ please leave me the fuck alone!!