I’m in hell for far too long.im stuck looking all n cheery n fun n shit. But I’m exhausted. Hell me ,,, pkease. Nne takes me for real
I’m in hell for far too long.im stuck looking all n cheery n fun n shit. But I’m exhausted. Hell me ,,, pkease. Nne takes me for real
I’m sorry you’re feeling badly Diane. Know that I am here for you…we all are. Sometimes our blogging family is the best family. At least we understand.
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I have Dr appointment Tom
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I’m glad you have an appt for today. Keep us posted! ❤
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Thanks L, I will.
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Love you guys. I’m just tired tired of the bs
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You know my email addy, just drop a line any time. ❤
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I have a Dr appointment Tom. I’m just tired n tired of bs. Even my mom minimumizes my shit n we live eachother
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Everyone minimizes my shit no matter how low I hit and they see it. They wonder why I turned to the internet for support but there it is…
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I am extremely mentally & physically exhausted & totally drained. Dr B is great, 5 weeks samples vraylar. I also asked (&He did) switch from xanax to klonipin because sometimes the efficacy wears off. He asked if I wanted inpatient, I said I can’t. Too much responsibility. I see him again 2.5-3 weeks, sooner prn/crisis intervention, ,,, I will see
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Tried Buspar, Klonopin, Ativan…NONE of them did a thing, Xanax is my person, so to speak.
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Xanax works for me but sometimes my body needs a holiday then I switch xanax>klonopin. Later back. Right now: lamictal 150mg bid, lithium 1200mg/d, (b)trintellix 5mg/d, klonopin 2mg/d & Vraylar 3mg/d, traz 100mg hs prn. ASA prn pain
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Bloody, Hell! That sounds like my old regime, when I was medicated to the gills of Nemo. Now I’m jusr 450mg Lithium XR twice daily, 200mg Lamitcal daily, 20mg XR Methylph, ).5 mg Xanax four times daily, and 100mg Pristiq daily.
Then there is the melatonin or if I am desperate, Temazepam…
I’m still medicated to the gills. FUCK. And struggling more often than not.
Viva Big Pharma, right? ❤
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Yes, I’m fall off the earth & be happier
Did I say stress is KILLING me & I’m happy with that
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Duude, stress is killing me and I am NOT happy with that. WE are tougher than this, Diane. Me, you, Sass- we are badasses. We’ve got to keep fighting.
Or drinking. I am good with drinking.
Because at least insurance doesn’t have to take a week to approve that. ❤
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Babe I can’t afford alcohol unless Mom’s pays. & she will . amen
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Dude,I can’t drink til someone else pays. Can’t discern if it’s good or bad that R brings Mangoritas any time he visits 😉
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I bet!
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{Strongs} my pole sista. Keep us posted about tomorrow. You are loved 💖
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Thanks so are you, i’m still in a mixed ep & am having dark (su) thoughts. I still have a heartbeat so I guess that’s a good sign,,, love ya Sissy
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Icky medicines giving icky side effects. Bastards. Know you aren’t ever alone Sissy 💖
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Stop the cheer it just makes things worse. Just stay quiet and people will leave you alone. Their expectations will leave you be. Bipolar on Fire always recommends ’emotional ICU’. If you can, take a break from people give yourself some time to occupy the emotional ICU, it does help. I work all day, so keeping away from people is impossible. I plug my earphones in and ignore everyone. They soon get the message and I don’t have to interact with anyway. It doesn’t take the pain away. It just lessens the load a bit. I’ll be thinking of you. Stay warm in the ICU ❤
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Thanks for the advice
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Xxx
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You know, my life kinda turned around when I stopped pretending for others’ sake. Look after yourself :***
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Thank you
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Still mentally & physically weak. Got 5 wks samples Vraylar. Changed to klonopin. Seeing me in 2.5 weeks. Asked if I wanted-inpt,I declined. To many responsibility,,, Im tied but I’ll live…
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*tired
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I have to remain ‘happy, etc’ if not, I get 1001.64 questions,,, 😥
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😦 It’s okay to not be happy. Wish you weren’t. But it’s okay. ❤
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really relate to this. don’t pretend. its harder on you if you do. you deserve to feel how you feel even if that’s not what others want. thinking o fyou I hope your doing ok today. xxx
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Thanks mou.
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