OCTOBER 21, 2016 (Repost)

WEDNESDAY SEPTEMBER 7, 2016

My post today is to remember Blahpolar (Blah). Her tortured soul left us but now she is free, finally at peace. It hurts me, I’m tearing up as I write this. I wish there was something I could’ve done. Hell we all feel this way, but the truth is there was nothing we or Blah could do. She endured & taken it to the limit & beyond in her suffering (as many of us do)

Even though I never met her in person, she made us feel as though we had. A beautiful soul extinguished too soon. 

The pain she (& we) face daily is often unbearable. People would literally crumble if they traded places for one day.

So as I mourn Blah’s passing, I know she’s tried all she could & she’s now in a better place.She had 2 gazillion friends on Word Press, (well that’s what the dragon said).Blah has finally found her peace.  Rest easy my friend. You will be eternally missed. Good bye Blah. 

JUNE 10, 2016 IT’S A SLIPPERY F*CKKING SLOPE

Did you ever feel like you’re standing on a ledge wishing you’d go one way or the other, kinda debating slipping forward isn’t such a bad thing ,,, so just to be sure, you look down to be sure you’re high enough, but you’re not too high to fly,,??? *Now I got this fucking semicolon tat on my wrist, I look at it & what do I do? I have 5 pretty tats, I wanna leave a pretty mess. Im a pretty little mess,,,
Should I,,,
***GET A NEW FUCKING TATTOO! !!
shhh ~ you got a better idea? ??
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High Functioning Depression: We Can’t Overlook the Overachievers | The Mighty

http://themighty.com/2016/05/high-functioning-depression-we-cant-overlook-the-overachievers/

JUNE 4 2016 ‘A CRY FOR HELP’

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MAY 4, 2016. Just imagine the surprising reaction if this commercial showed the same compassion but instead for mental illness Watch “S.E. Perry – Merck TV Commercial “Night # 14 with Shingles”” on YouTube

THAT IS ALL,,,

FEBRUARY 7 2016 BLACK Pt. 1

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JH DAD DB BURT meaning i have no idea what my smart ass phone meant to say,,, Happy New Year ~ My yummies. I think?? JANUARY 1 2016

I HATE FOOD! It’s the same as the air I breathe, I. Can. Not. Live. Nor. With. Out. It,,,,,,,    
FuCk YoU mOtHeRfUckEr! I HATE!  LEMME TELL YOU; I mOtHeRfUcKiNg HATE YOU BITCH MOTHERFUUUUCCKKERRR!!!
I HAVE ANOREXIA. I REALLY?? I THOUGHT IT WAS UNDER CONTROL but you’re a sneaky FUCK!- HAHA. slowly, insidiously creeping your way back BUT YOU SLIPPED INTO MY REALLY (LIFE) AGAIN. BUT. I. LIKE. YOU…. I. MAKE. ME. FEEL. BETTER. ABOUT. ME.,,, YOU. MAKE. ME. FEEL. IN. CONTROL!!! I LLLOOOOVVVEEEE. HOW WWWEEE (YES, WWWWEEEE) fUcKiN’ feel, AlIvE ~ wHeN i’M gOnNa & WaNnA DiE!

AUGUST 4 2015 FUCKING WIRED BABY!! FUCKING FRENZIED BRAIN

I’M OFFICIALLY IN MY OWN PRIVATE SHARK WEEK HELL! (NOT MY PERIOD, THAT. DON’T HAPPEN ANYMORE ~ I. DON’T MANUFACTURE PEOPLE ANYMORE!!) SHARK BRAIN FRENZY!! BIPOLAR BABY!! ULTIMATE CHEMICAL IMBALANCE!! MEANING MY “SHARK” IS MY OWN FUCKING BRAIN!! ELECTRIC!! HYPOMANIA TURNS TO MANIA!!
At first the ride was friendly SHIT NO! FRIENDLY = FUN!. Friendly meaning it was fun, I enjoyedit, FUCK! I RELISHED IT, WELCOMED IT! NOW IT’S OVERWHELMED ME, ENVELOPED ME,,, NOOO CONTROL!!!
I’m mean, angry, looking for any FUCKING,,, wayyy,,, to challenge anything, anyone!!

*WORLD AROUND ME*: SQEEEAK,,, ‘HAHA!’
*MY BRAIN*: WHAT THE FUCK’D YOU SAY??
*WORLD* HAHA! NOTHING! HA!

*MY ENERGY LEVEL*: WHAT TO DO?! I’M BORED!
*WORLD* HUH? YOU SAY SOMETHING? I DIDN’T HEAR ANYTHING ~
GO RIDE YOUR FUCKING GIRAFFE! (I DIDN’T SAY NOTHING)

*BRAIN* I,,, DARE,,, YOU,,,, TO,,, DO ANYTHING, THAT’S WHAT YOU THINK YOU CAN NO! THAT’S WHAT YOU SAY YOU CAN DO BITCH!!!HA•FUCKING•HA!

AND,,, THIS,,, WAS,,, FUN??? YOU BETCHA!!

I’M WIRED!! BRAIN, YOU’RE FIRED!! I. HATE. YOU!!

(can’t you behave like everybody else?!?)

NO!! I’M. YOUR. BRAIN. AND I HAVE. A MIND OF. MY.OWN!! I OWN YOU!!! I OWN US!! BITCH-E- POO! HAHAHA!!! MADNESS

I THINK NOT!! AT ITS FINEST!! DOES THIS MAKE SENSE? NOPE, NOT TO ME EITHER! I CAN NOT WILL NOT APOLOGIZE FOR WHAT I CAN’T EXPLAIN OR UNDERSTAND!

* *Disclaimer: all is written on my phone, no computer, so any errors are the sole responsibility of Android©®™ etc,,,, 🙂